Thursday, October 27, 2005

By the time

knowing that all is not what we desire makes us sometimes being pessimistic.
It is not that the way of thinking. we just know what we know and that is ignorance. Sometimes I ask myself if it matters to know anything as we are soon called to go back to our real home. It could be boring to care about things which are not always what we desire. For a while, I wanted to know exactly what was going on or what has to be. Still the questions are there. Often, I long for something exciting, joyfull and necessary. I wanted something I really like. Instead of that, I realised that I could never create the life, I could never own it, I could never pack it, I could never make it what I like or think.
However, something steeples in my pansy. Am I right, am I raving, am I thinking wrong?
Sure. It has been many things I experienced; I am not allowed to rave.
OK, let´s try to understand a bit.
It is a difficult way to reach what one desires. That is normal. To climb, you must struggle, just like willing to reach and to stay on the top of the mountain. It is risky, dangerous, uncertain. What we have to keep in mind is that to climb or to arrive at the top of the mountain, one must pass through the valley. In this dangerous area, allthing is possible. Meeting savage animals, wild creature, difficult ways or paths are things that could happen. I would be a little bit comfortable to recite "the Lord is my sheperd, I will not be in want ... Though I walk through the valley of the death, I will ..." and so on. Still, I am not quiet sure of the concordance between what one says and what he feels. It is easy to remember some word than to be sure that they are really useful. However, the challenge is great. It would be about knowing what to do, how to do and when to do........
(to be continued)

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Hope for all


The deepest trouble could just challenge us to grow up.
The real trouble is when we don´t know about ourselves or what we need realy. Then there would be two problems: trouble and lack of solution.
In order to avoid any shadow, we have to think about ourselves.